I hope 2016 is treating you all well. Spring is almost officially here which is very exciting! I wish this post was a recipe, but it will have to be another update.
Shortly after my last post, my health started declining again… very rapidly. I had some pain in my feet for some time but it became almost unbearable. I also started getting horrible joint pain all throughout my body, swelling, and the crushing fatigue is back. I do not think this is related to the parathyroid disease that I went through. I have a family history of auto-immune diseases RA and MS… and I am very afraid that all the stress I have been through may have triggered something in my body.
I made an appointment with my doctor but at the last minute I was told she called out sick… so I had to see another lady I had never met before. I was very unhappy when I left. She kept telling me things like “You are too young to feel this way” (To which I replied: “Yea well I was also too young for parathyroid disease but I just went through that!”) and just tried to blow me off. I really think she thought I was just a pill seeker by the way she was treating me. But the funny thing is that I did not even ask for anything for the pain. (Because I did not want to be labeled that way!)
So I am currently in limbo… no diagnosis on what is wrong with me, but suffering tremendously. Nothing for the pain, except tylenol which barely touches it. Just making it through the day has become difficult again. I actually had to break down and buy a cane last week, because I am sick of limping around. It was hard to do, but has helped. I have an appointment with a specialist in May, I am praying that they will be able to help me. I was just thinking yesterday that I can not remember the last time I baked something, or went outside to take pictures, or took my kids to do something fun. I am having a hard time with this mentally as well as physically because I will never get this time back. My children will never be this little again. I am very sad that I am missing out and they are not getting the mother they deserve. If anyone has any suggestions for making life easier while raising kids and living with chronic pain & fatigue I would love to hear it, please leave a comment.
I have thought of just shutting this blog down, but surprisingly there are still many views everyday… thank you Pinterest LOL. So I will leave it and hope that one day I can focus on it again. Right now I need to focus on getting better and use what little energy I have for my family.
So after that bad news I must give you all some good news. My husband and I are buying our first house! We have been joking that we feel like “Adultier adults” now 😀 I actually just drove by it again tonight. Maybe that is weird but I don’t care because I am too excited! I am mostly excited about my new lovely kitchen and the yard. The yard is tiny but we plan on turning the entire thing into a garden. I have so many ideas in my head for the new home. I hope my health will cooperate for me to get things done and I hope I can blog about at least some of it as well 😀
Until next time,
❤ Ashley ❤